strong and weak forces

I'm in one of those strange places in my head. This particular one is telling me that the only people worth talking to are gays and possibly also androgynous beings, but since the probability of their existence is a wee bit low, well you get the idea.

This probably mainly arises out of the fact that recently girls annoy the hell out of me. I’m not sure why… too much drama maybe. Being all nice when in fact all you want to do is do your fricking homework, and you can hardly throw them out or else risk many many problems in the near or distant future.

And guys just suck away too much energy, either through too much attention, or too little, or the wrong kind.

This state of mind has achieved in me something unusual. After dance class today, after DANCE class today (this is usually the one thing I look forward to all week) made me want to flee. I swear I'll never wear a necklace there again. They ALL stare. it's highly irritating, when every guy you dance with just stares at your neck whenever he gets the chance. As for the girls, the few (one) I actually speak with there is one of those girls that even I am uncomfortable with because they're too touchy-feely. It seems that type is somewhat common here. One of the girls in my group is like that. It's quite amazing that those occasional interactions makes me understand why sometimes guys say that girls are scary...

Well, in the end I once again come to the conclusion that I really don't like people much at all. And the ones I can actually tolerate on a daily basis and maybe even get some enjoyment out of the interactions I can count on one hand. Is that how everyone feels like? I certainly hope not. It'd be a very sad comment on human nature. 

I guess, in this sense, the Americans have a grain of truth in their philosophy of capitalistic interactions; bother only with those people who can be used or profited from somehow, and sue the shit out of everyone else.